SHITTY LOW EFFORT BLOG FOR FUNSIES

happy new year everybody... i don't really have much to say, but i hope my energy to create art continues into this year. i think it's kind of interesting how usually i'm most active towards the end of the year, with some things sprinkled in between. oh well, i think it's fine to take it easy too ^^;

in the future, i might just post touhou arrangements individually as i make them instead of sitting on them for a big album release. not sure when i'd even compile another touhou album anyways, since i told myself i'd try to focus on more original stuff this year haha. i am currently planning on making another arrangement though just to celebrate the new years + GENSOKYO WILL NEVER DIE getting a ton of views and downloads.

for the new year, this was the first video i decided to watch (and by extension, first song). i've always been a big fan of kinema kan's works. they're all so heartfelt and sweet.

woah woah what the heck, GENSOKYO WILL NEVER DIE is getting very positive reception!

seriously, i didn't think it would get that much traction to begin with.. and now people are downloading it! an entire hell raven album! on their 'puters! every positive comment feels like a loving gut-punch and i've gotta say, seriously, thank you. i'm not used to a whole lot of attention, and -- if i may be a little vulnerable for a moment -- i've always felt a bit insecure about my music, so it really affects me when people express interest in the things i put a lot of work into.

also, the other day i learned that someone had put me up on touhouDB!!!! i'm happy that my love for touhou will be archived somewhere outside of my own doing, it's really sweet knowing that someone out there took the time to bother documenting my silly amateurish tunes. i was surprised that they even included the bonus art in GENSOU MURDER PARTY in the image gallery ^^;

aside from that, i've got nothing else to write. tldr im a happy little guy :)

hey hey hey it's finally out ^_^ you can listen to the youtube upload here, or you can visit the bandcamp page for higher quality listening (recommended, in all honesty)

so, where to begin?

well, it first started when i got the random urge to arrange green-eyed jealousy from touhou 11. well, it wasn't random, i actually felt kind of bitter about my music at the time. the people around me were making such beautiful and professional music, and what was i doing?! 2023 had some not-that-great songs and i just was not feeling it at all. so i sat down one night and crammed all of those feelings into jaded hell 665. my 2nd song of the year was "GENSOKYO WILL NEVER DIE", funnily enough. my goal for that song was to create something from the other, not-bitter side of my heart. instead of making music to spite myself, i should make music because there's still love in my heart, right? even though i was still struggling a little, the rest of the songs are a result of me spitting ideas out even if it isn't the best thing ever.

DENSETSU NO MAKAI was one of those songs i spent a long time trying to perfect. i kept on trying to fit a certain standard of hardcore, i wanted it to have both loud gabber kicks *and* an overwhelming "epic" sort of feeling, but it was just one of those things that i had to accept would sound a little weird. hey, i guess you could say that it's unique in that sense. when i thought about how i've always hated the idea of sounding like a generic edm producer with boringly-clean beats, i came to like it a little more. lately i've grown to accept that some of my musical flaws are what make music fun to create to begin with. if i'm not having fun spending hours trying to mix one section of a song, why can't i just let it free in its rawest form? this was a lot of rambling, sorry if it was a little incoherent.

i guess what i'm trying to say is that in the end, it's fine to loosen up a bit. so what if my music isn't the best ever? everyone has their own little niche anyways.

well, good news is i finalized my plans to release the album on december 20th. i'm glad i was able to finish a project for once ;;

but i dont know... it's very hard to hype up my music (in that i lack confidence). i know that it's not about being the best out there, but it feels like my music is just too amateurish? which is kind of a weird complaint, because i personally love amateurish music made with like default plugins and shit. this is probably just a self-bias issue and the fact that it's kinda hard to judge your own work when it involves sitting in a chair for several hours listening to the same thing T_T

i remember one time someone commented on one of my touhou arrangements saying it was one of their all-time favorite arrangements for that song, and it really made me so emotional. to think that a stranger could stumble upon something i've made and have it impact them so much that it's now considered a "favorite"? completely nuts to me. it feels like some kind of "ultimate purpose" in a way. i share my art with the world because i want to bring joy to the people like me. well, by "people like me", i sorta mean people who like to download random obscure doujin albums LOL

i sorta went off on a tangent there didn't i.. oh well, that's the purpose of this blog anyways. i should probably get better sleep

here's some music for the day. or night. whatever it is for you

i've spent the whole year making touhou arrangements despite my low energy, so i'm here to say that there will be a touhou album releasing some time in december hehe... i dont really have anything creative to call it, so it's gonna be named "GENSOKYO WILL NEVER DIE!" after that one MoF cover/arrange i posted some time ago.

i have many complicated and conflicting feelings about my music but i think GENSOKYO WILL NEVER DIE! is a song that will be special to me for a long time. when the album goes live, i'll probably make a blog post talking about the process of the album. look forward to it, whoever you are. i have no idea who really visits my website and reads my blogs, but i hope it was worth it.

also making this site made me realize how many opinions i have but hrmm its really hard coming up with layouts for web pages... i like how i handled the touhou shrine but im still in the process of trying to make it feel more... touhou-y... like i think its a good layout, it just needs a little more personality.. hmm indeed.

alrighty, now that i know this page works as intended i guess ill talk about what ive been doing lately.

despite my online inactivity, i actually have a ton of songs that i'd like to post at some point. most of the time when i don't post music it's because i either:

• A) am unhappy with it
• B) have no motivation to draw the album art
• C) have no idea what the album art would even be
• D) mysterious 4th option

as you know, i have a bit of a weird relationship with art.... sometimes i ask myself if i even need to draw anything for an album cover. maybe i can just edit a touhou screenshot or something and call it a day. i always prioritize having fun first, but i guess that means i don't have fun very often ^^;

i'm sure no one reads these but its ok, i don't mind the solitude

aaand my blog page is now up! life is all about the random burst of motivation to work on some crappy website... my back hurts. heres a song thats stuck in my head